My mum called me the worst names today :( but had a reason .. advice please :( ?

i will admit that i have problems but i think they are because of my mum .. she is always putting me down for example today we were talkin about jobs and she named a few other girls that are in my grade and compared them to me and said that they would get a job in a clothes shop because they are bubbly and outgoing and she said to me that i havent got the personality for it ! and she said i am not normal and i am very odd(not outgoing at all) and it just made me so mad that i pushed her and she fell and now her arm and hip is very sore and i feel extremely bad :( i didnt mean for her to fall :( and i apologised and said i am so sorry and then afterwards she made me feel extremely bad , she took my fone , my makeup , ALL my luxurys and told me she was ashamed that she ever had me and that everyone is laughing AT me and that i have no friends and that im a retard and that i only belong in the gutters because i wont be ABLE to do my dream career (teaching children) because of the way i am... this isnt the first time this has happened but it has never been this bad :( please give your opinions and advice :( .. (by the way i am normal but i admit i have depression slighty ) please help!